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Wednesday, 29 December 2010

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I could share some very personal stories -- that have just happened recently -- here, but I decided not to because I do not want people to feel sorry for me. However, based on several personal experiences, I've realized that: like a wound, when it gets deep enough, you won't feel the pain; and the scar that the wound leaves, will recall the memory of that battle, and remind one that they are still alive -- when one has lost enough of what they have, they may become numbed about losing, but the memory of one and their lost ones will be forever irreplaceable, and will remind them that they are still alive, and capable of doing anything to make the best of their days.

Life is a cycle, people get born, get old, get sick, and will all eventually die. I remember having a conversation with my mother one day. I knew that she is quite scared of death, but I thought people may change, so I asked, "mum, are you scared of death?" She said yes, still. She said it's because that she thinks there are too many things to do in life, and once we die, we can no longer do anything. True. However, I think the reason why she would feel this way is because she is carrying a lot of responsibilities in her life -- her family, our family, her job, and her friendships with many people. Then she asked me if I am scared of death, too. I told her that I am scared of seeing, or even imagining people die, but I'm not scared of my own death as long as it is meant to be.

I have experiences of losing the loved ones, both people and things, either by death or other reasons. My feeling at the time was awful, deadly, heartbreaking -- the feeling of grief. However, once you've lost them, you can hardly do anything about it. And so, finally, losing loved ones become like getting scars from scratches. The very first time you get scratched, you may be all worried about that it might leave a permanent scar, and if it does, you may feel sad about having an ugly scar on your once flawless skin. But when you get scratched a few more times, you know that it will leave scars on your skin, and that you can do nothing about it, but to accept it; you won't see it as a big deal anymore. In fact, you might as well feel more alive when you see your scars because each scar has their own story -- I have different memories, and stories with each of the loved ones that I have lost. Each of them had, and will always have an irreplaceable position in my life. It is painful, indeed, to have lost them. However, I am now living with the fact that they are gone. Moreover, they remind me that we shall seize the day, make each day as particular as possible because sometimes, life is too unpredictable.



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