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Sunday, 12 September 2010


Last night, while I was trying to finish my humanities homework, I found myself rather moody. There was nothing else but all these homework piling up on my desk, which I thought it might help reminding me how much work I had to do, and so that I had no time to be whiny and emotional. However, it was useless. I could not concentrate at all. Therefore I gave up trying to work, and decided to take a break. Then, as I dazed, a friend called. What a perfect timing? I thought. And so we started to chat.

I planned to mutter through our entire conversation, but apparently he was planning to do the same thing; and as tradition, when one complains, the other one automatically became the listener. In this case, I, the quiet one, became the listener as a matter of course. So I listened as he complained. He complained about all kinds of things in his life. It was too much to remember all of them, but I do remember one of them.

"My aunt once told me, 'imagine that you have a bag to put everything you have in it; and how heavy the bag is, is how heavy your pressure is,'" he said, "and everything includes your family, friends, school, job, books, clothes, and etc... it's everything." I loved this saying. It is basically saying that the more things you care about, the more responsibility you are taking. Yet you can never make everything all right, and that is where pressure comes from. However, before I could relate myself to the saying, he started to tell me how it relates to him. His bag is heavy because of it has his family in it. He told me how close everyone in his family is -- from his grand parents, to his aunts, uncles, father and mother, to his cousins and him -- and how this fact bothers him. "Everyone puts their attention on you," he said, "it's kind of stressful sometimes." Yeah, I agreed. I have a very big family on my mother's side, and I am the only person in the family who goes to an international school. So everyone has been quite curious about my future. They have been asking my mother about me, and of course, my mother always keeps them updated. This gives me a feeling as if I'm on a stage with a thousand audiences watching me. It enlarges every mistakes that I make. And so I'd have to be very careful of everything I do. Stressful, sometimes.

I have a discrepant mind. Thus, as I thought further of the saying, I thought that sometimes, on the other hand, what if there is nothing in the bag for you to carry? ". . . how heavy the bag is, is how heavy your pressure is." If you empty your bag just to avoid the heaviness, would you feel a since of emptiness? Could it be the more you are able to carry, to handle, the stronger you get? Like weight training -- the heavier you can lift, the stronger you become. Maybe it could be nice to have your "everything" after all. Besides, things that you would put into the bag are all the ones that you love, aren't they?





-http://www.selectism.com/news/2009/07/22/capsule-ny-shades-of-greige-bags-for-spring-2010/ [Image. Copied by Jez. 12 Sep. 2010.]

Friday, 3 September 2010


CNN reports, 30 year-old Chris Keith was 12 when he learned that his family didn't die in a car accident in 1985. Chris was explained, by his grandparents, that his father suffocated his mother, shot his brother, Mikey, in the back of the head while he slept, and the worse of all, before he committed suicide, Chris' father, shot Chis in the forehead. Medics had declared everyone in the house dead.

"It was almost like going through it again. I started feeling all these feelings again, of anger, of betrayal, of feeling like nobody wanted me. I was angry at the world, and mad at my grandparents for waiting so long to tell me," said Chris, ". . . . my own dad tried to kill me, so who am I supposed to trust?" These words struck me while I was browsing through the article. How would I feel if the person who I love, and that I trust, tries to hurt me? Shocked, angry, betrayed, and lost perhaps.

According to Chris, incident such as the one that Chris has experienced in 1985 still happens. For example, the resent case in South Carolina where a mother is accused of suffocating her two boys before putting them into their car seats and letting the car roll into a river. Why would a parent try to kill their own children, their own flesh? Chris wonders these questions as well.

Looking at news and stories like this makes people frown. Also, it may cause people to wonder about the morality of our society. What happened to morality among people that is causing parents to kill their children? However, fortunately that in Chris' case, he is able to bear his sorrowful memory, and stay positive about his life. "Doctors don't know why I'm alive. . . . I have a second chance in life, and I just want to make the most of it, and maybe help others who are internally suffering," he said to the CNN reporter. Chris married young, at the age of 19, due to his longing for a family. He believes that his 6-year-son is the proof of that good can come from evil. Now Chris tells his story to youth groups at juvenile justice centers. He tells struggling youth that they are not alone. "Even when we feel we have no inner strength left, you can make it," he says. I'm impressed by Chris' positive attitude toward his unfortunate past.

He's got many goals in life. At the top of the list: "To not end up like my dad."



Reference:
-http://edition.cnn.com/2010/LIVING/09/03/survivor.family.massacre/index.html#fbid=cxFA5Zf2tbH&wom=false [Picture, CNN News Article: My own dad tried to kill me. Copied by Jez. 04 Sep. 2010]